It Has Two Different Meanings To A TBI Patient
If you are someone who has experienced a TBI or is living through Post Concussive Syndrome, ” crash” is a word that you are probably quite familiar with.
Crash Definition A
This is the crash in the literal sense of the word. In other words, you fall or crash into something. For example, I still have problems with vertigo, dizziness, and balance, even a year post injury.
Stupid me thought it was a bright idea to try and sit down while holding my walker to get my shoe on. At least I think that is what it was. My memory for detail isn’t great at this point and it all happened so fast.
I literally crashed. When I lost my balance, the first thing that happened was I went sideways and backward into the cabinet. It was really slick, I ended up basically pulling the walker over on top of myself.
Luckily for me, I fell on my hip. Didn’t hit my head or do my usual equestrian related reaction. Which is to catch myself putting my hand out. This leads to broken arms and broken wrists. That is the last thing I need!
The cabinet that I fell into had a bunch of framed photos on it. Of course, it caused them to fall. They fell onto the hardwood kitchen floor. So I ended up on the kitchen floor in a pile of broken glass.
Try To Laugh It Off
I laugh now, it wasn’t funny at the time. When I first got hurt I crashed and fell all the time. Luckily, I have improved a lot and it isn’t as frequent as an occurrence as it used to be. You know what they say… if your gonna do it, do it big. I definitely had a big-time crash last week!
Crash Definition B
Definition B is used to determine the way us TBI patients feel after we have overdone it. We all should know our tolerance level and know when to take it a break. Sometimes it works out and sometimes it does not.
When we overdo it, whether it be physically or just stress, we crash. Not in the definition A sense of the word, but the definition b way. Meaning we are so tired that we can’t do anything. Our heads get foggy, we can’t find our words. All of the symptoms we experience worsen and will literally want to crash into bed. Or maybe a comfy chair and just close our eyes and rest.
These crash days or something just a few hours, are a coping mechanism when dealing with TBI and PCS. We always want to push ourselves and improve our tolerance levels. Part of that process is when our brain tells our body that it can’t do anymore. It just wants you to rest and then crash!
As We Progress We Hope To Have Less Crashes (both kinds)
Recovering and rehabilitating from a brain injury is a long and complicated process. Crashing (both definitions) is an inevitable part of the process.
If you are like me and are still recovering, give yourself a break! If you happen to definition A crash, try not to get hurt! Keep your chin up and keep on keepin’ on.
If you feel like you need to Definition B crash do it!! It is hard to explain to those who haven’t experienced it what we feel like at times. It is hard to make them understand. I don’t even bother to try anymore. If I need a crash day, a do-nothing day, I just take one. I don’t allow myself to feel guilty about it. I’m making good progress and I’m going to continue to think positive about my recovery. A crash day is just what our brain and body will need to rejuvenate. Then, we can continue on our path to rehabilitation.
If You Are Crashing(Either A or B)…
Don’t beat yourself up over it. Think positive. I’m going to beat my TBI and I know you will beat yours too. Even if you do have some crashes along the way, it ain’t no thing ! You are way tougher and resilient than your brain injury will ever be. Don’t you ever forget that!