Not That I’m Complaining!
I’m very grateful for how far I have come. Being able to walk around without the help of my cane most of the time is an amazing feeling after all I have been through.
Actual Work & Working Out
I have started to incorporate working out at the barn doing the morning barn chores, cleaning stalls, etc… as well as my regular physical therapy exercises and yoga.
So far this has been the hardest stage for me to figure out where my limits lie.
Yesterday, I made it through most of the barn work and I felt okay. Not like a million bucks or anything but that isn’t to be expected. When we got to be almost done. I felt feeling really bad.
I went inside right away and laid down. On came the migraine and I was out of commission for the rest of the day.
This morning, I only had a little headache when I went outside to work. After doing the outside chores I felt good. I came inside, had a kind bar for breakfast and continued to do my normal work out routine. Riding my recumbent bike for a half hour and doing yoga.
By the time I was done that I was done in. Full on migraine. Had to take the maximum amount of migraine medication that I can. I fell asleep for a while. Ate lunch and then rested a little longer.
I managed to go out to the barn for a little while this afternoon to get a quick video project done. It just sucks because it feels like I have been run over. I have a migraine hang over and I feel like I’m only functioning on 50 percent battery level.
I Figured It Out Before, I Will Figure It Out Again!
Each time I have gotten to a new stage of my recovery I have had to figure out new limits. For some reason, this time it seems even harder than all those times before.
I guess because it feels so good to be so much more capable than I have in forever, that mentally it is a lot more disappointing when I have a crash day.
Basically, I have done things, a lot of things, the past two days. Both days I ended up crashing for half of the day though and when I wake up in the morning I still feel only 50 %.
Thank You For Listening To Me Whine
I just had to get that out of my system. Mentally, I feel sort of all over the place, between being super excited about what I have been able to do as well as disappointed at not being able to figure out my limitations.
I always did before though, so I’m sure I will figure it out again! As usual, I just gotta keep on keepin’ on!